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I'm not here anymore

 

By Ochuko Tonukari

 

 

A curious feeling, an absolute lethargy has crept over me...
Donít knock on the door, donít ring the bell
Donít wait for my voice, that you know so well.
For Iím taking a trip to an unknown place
Itís the first time Iíve been here in inner space.

Just cannot explain this feeling I feel
I wish I knew what was the real deal.
Iím doing the things Iíve always done
I know all will be fine in the long run.

Itís not that Iím sad, or even depressed
Itís not that Iím acting like one possessed.
Itís not that Iím mad, or even confused
And no, this is not keeping me amused.

Floating like a cloud riding on the wind
Iím feeling completely spaced out within.
Just watching Life go meandering by
I want to lie down and just look at the sky.

I donít want to speak, I donít want to write
I donít want to smile, I donít want to fight
I donít want to eat , I donít want to breathe
I just want to let go, I just want to be

No strings attached, no duty calls
Breaking down all my weary walls
Just flying out to the deep blue sea
Spirit's footloose, and fancy free.

So if you ring the bell, or knock on the door
Donít wonder, coz Iím not here anymore.
I hope Iíll touch down on Urhoboland real soon
Till then, think of me when you look at the moon.

Floating like a cloud riding on the wind
Iím feeling completely spaced out within.
Just watching Life go meandering by
I want to lie down and just look at the sky.

 




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